Decisions

There are days, when you wake up and everything isn't at all right. And your day would seem to continue wrong until it ends. I hate days like that. Those are the days when you tend to resent your recent big decisions, and even bothered by the small ones.

I just changed job, it is a promotion. I now receive better pay, better title, and better incentives, of course, supposedly, more responsibilities. However, I'm missing the challenge and I'm feeling stagnated. On the other hand, it is true that making friends starts at zero. My only glory at the end of the day is my red lanyard and the respect from more people, and on top of those? Nothing else.

If I cannot convince myself that my days will get better, I would think that it would be nicer to go home to Davao and drown myself into my old bed, old pillows and my old blankets. I'd rather lazy around all day, and I’ll wait for my mom to call me for every meal. But of course, I cannot do that as I please. It's true though that every tear will pay off, at the right time.

I guess, I'm a fighter who chooses his battles carefully. I tend to spend my energy on things which matters more. It is hard sometimes, because it takes a lot of anger management, patience, perseverance and a lot of thinking.

If ever my decisions are wrong, God is fair enough to make me correct them and for me to make the best out of my misfortunes.