This is funny. How long has it been? Five years? It is weird revisiting your past, like your UGLY past. I was once proud of this. Now, I look back and I thought it was a mistake. I wasted all my energy and brain cells to escape from the loneliness and the animosity that the real world has. People pick on you because of your bad hairstyle, because your face has too much oil, because your clothes are cheap, because your grammar is poor and your schwa is missing and your American a is overused. People can be mean and they don't help. They just laugh at your back and feel sorry for your shortcomings and they love it. You see, I don't say it was everyone. Some people were good but now they are gone, so much of my old workplace.
I was a kid then. My parents were 300 miles away. No matter what I did they wouldn't have known. I could have died and they couldn't have done anything to prevent it. I abused my freedom. My youth consumed me with the thought that I was invincible. I get this The Time Traveller's Wife feeling, this feels like I am talking to my younger self, giving him based-on-experience sermon, only it is not true. The past can't be rewritten. Well, I guess it is obvious that there are some parts in my past that I want to change.
Well, this feels a little overwhelming. I was a bad kid and I hope that with the little amount of future that I have left that I could make my parents, my sister and my nephew proud and happy. This feels good and I will talk to you more often from now on. A crappy pilot needs a better sequel. So here it is, I am trying.