Disabilities

Na naman! Nakakapagsulat ako kasi nalulungkot ako.
Nalulungkot ako para sa isang kaibigan. Sobrang laki kasi ng nagbago sa amin simula nang natuto kaming magdroga. Physically, socially and even the way we think and people think about us.

We have our issues but I can say now, they are all dealt with and are all history.

But just recently, a very surprising story came into my attention. I can't believe that he'll steal under any circumstances. I dont want to believe it, but what concerns me most is the rumor that will creep around.

Like what I learned, somebody accused that I stole his 2 tabs of ecstacy from his pocket. So, unbelievable! And, my friends kept it from me. All the while, I am a thief in their eyes.

I wish you more hairs this year.

I feel very tired today. I just had a massage last night, which by the way was so great. But still I feel so heavy and weary.

I am emotionally battered. And, I need to make some major changes with my life. Unload some anger, sort out priorities, change some old ways, and look back at some old good stuff. I am sure I am going to step upon a lot of people but I can't think of any other way around it.

I'M TIRED and I am almost going to burst.

I can't exactly remember since when I got single. I can recollect, but can't find a time. I just feel like it has been too long already since the last that I was in a serious relationship, or at least I was serious. Now, every single day I am constantly hoping to find a partner. It sounds so desperate of me, but all I know this time around is that, I want a stable and serious relationship, with someone I truly like and who'll give me the joy and the attention I am always looking for.

I miss the smell of a boyfriend's chest. When I badly need a hug, sinking my face towards his chest, sniffing the smell of his shirt and feeling lump of his body.

I miss the warm breath in my neck. When you are embraced from behind and holding his hand that seems to say, don't let go yet and embrace me some more.

I miss the intimate conversation in the coffee shop. Where you can frown and smile together; steal some stare and laugh it out.

I miss the movie dates. Sharing popcorn and lemonade, hiding locked hands and miss his tight embrace until you get home together.

I miss the long torrid kisses. The kiss that keeps no inhibitions. The kiss that is full of passion, that without saying a word you exchanged I Love You's.

I miss the mushy text messages. The lingering I Love You's in your inbox, the morning greeting and the late good nights.

I miss a little of the arguments. When you both try to untangle some differences, ends with a compromise and getting used to new ways that works for the both of you. Make a little sacrifice and be happy with it.

I miss the cute planning together. Imagining big dreams in the early stage of your relationship and the drive it gives you as you make them come true together.

I miss being envied. Because your friends know you are happy.

I miss the proud feeling. That, mama will know him soon.

I miss the intimate dates. The us, the ours, the you and me and the contentment it brings to me.