Crashing Confessions

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I am tired, but I am not losing a lover again. I swallowed my pride, increased my patience and widen my understanding.

Unknowingly, and frustratingly did not at all saw it coming, the same goes to my partner, he said he is tired too.

All along when I thought I shared a wonderful relationship with him, we're killing each other.

I guees my sacrifices aren't enough after all. Making me think if I'm already close to becoming a doormat again, or had become a cold, insensitve, non-reciprocating, unable to show love, cynical person?

Do you wanna know Jhay "Tyra" Estavillo?

NT Log in: MNLJestavillo
Phone name: Tyra

Jhay is from Davao City, the same city where I came from. Funny enough, despite the few population of gays back in our city, I only knew Jason here in Manila, at PeopleSupport.

Jhay, or Tyra, as he prefers us to call him, did not at all fail to create an awe wherever he goes. Tyra is indeed a personality in the company. He is just everywhere. He was in a lot dance numbers everytime there is a chance, flashing such clothing only he can ensemble. He gets negative remarks from others, but that is Tyra, and only Tyra can carry those fashion statement. It takes a lot of guts to carry such outfits Tyra had already flaunted. I tell you, no dull moments with Tyra.

Now get mesmerized.

Fresh and perky.

Paper roses... paper roses...

Tyra gone blonde!

Ewan ko ba, naging tradisyon na ata ng mga bakla ditey sa opis ang spamming. Most of the time, pinangungunahan ito ng the legendary, mother, Ryan Aquino ng Jetblue.

• dapat... may crown!

At ang kanyang mga masusugid na mga cojones, si Ms. Louie Roy Montero at si Ms. John Louie Punongbayan. Minsan, kumekeme pa sina Alvin Laxamana at Cris Andalis. Syempre, ang mayordoma, Audie May Garcia. Marami din akong kwento tungkol kay Audie May, next time ko nalang i-sh-share.

• Ms. Montero, Ms. Punongbayan, Ms. Andalis and Ms. Laxamana

Ang mga bakla, hindi pa kuntento sa katotohanang bakla sila. Gusto pa nilang itong sukatin, di-metro na ang pagiging bakla ngayon girl. Itey, http://www.channel4.com/life/microsites/G/gayometer/gayometer.html

Si Audie na hindi mukhang bakla, pero bakla pa sa parloristang retokada kung magsalita ay 43% gay lang. E ano yong 57%? Keme! Isang malaking keme! However, as per SWS survey, here is the breakdown of the remaining 57% of Audie May's personality make up; 25% bookingera, 20% lasinggera, 11% daugther, 1% son. Should you react Audie, go lang girl!

• sabi ko sa inyo, di siya mukhang bakla.

Girl, sinukat ko rin ang kabadingan kez, at 53% ako. Gosh!

Di naman nagpatalo si Jay "Tyra" Estavillo, na favorite outfit ang kanyang Princess Jasmine costume, at umiskor ng nakakalokang 56%. 56% lang siya sa lagay niyang yon? Damn! This isn't science enough. Sabay comment si Ate Audie, "ang taray ni jay, mas bakla!"

But wiz, si Ate Callboi ay 83%. At sabi pa niya ay, shet! Naku callboi, you should be celebrating! Bakla! Bakla! Bakla!

But for some reasons, after I replied to all my score, Ms. Punongbayan said, "Thanks..hehehehe" I don't get it, you're welcome anyway. Tinarayan tuloy siya ni Ate Audie, "e bakit ayaw mo sabihin ang results, paki take out sa list ang mga hindi bading, wawa namn sila." Alam mo na girl?!

So can you explain Ms. Punongbayan? "Katatapos ko lang girl..nakakahiya..36% lang ako..hehehehe" Nahiya daw siya Ate Audie. Bakla ka ba talaga girl? "mangligaw ka na lang ng babae, lalaki ka yata girl." Ayan, supalpal ka kay Ate Audie. Ate Audie knows everything, signs of aging.

As confirmation, may I share my love life is Ms. Punongbayan by making his statement, "Beklat committed na nga ako sa Hombre eh..live in pa kami..siguro exemption lang ako..baka mali lang mga sagot ko..hehhehe" In fairness, di ko rin maintindihan yong ibang questions dun. Hehe! Bakla, committed ka na pala? Sa Hombre? Sosyal! Congratultions. Sana magtagal kayo girl!!! Muwah! I'm happy for you. Unlike Ate Audie, ang jowa ay 2,500.00 per month. Mahal, parang loan. Sabay nagreminisce ang baklang kalbong si Ate Audie, "i can still remember the days na nakipag live in ako." Ayy... Keme mo girl! The days... signs of aging!

Ate Alvin kanina ka namin ina-anticipate girl! In a very modest and effem way, he said, "sorry ngayon lang naka reply... 60% bading.... Audie, dala ko "lalaki sa parola" at "Masahe". get it from me later sa locker ko." Naman, 60% bading ang ate mo at may dala pang dvd's. Audie, ano na naman gagawin mo sa bahay niyo? Manunuod ka naman ng porn? Haay. Tingnan niyo ang signature ni Ate Alvin. Nagmumura!

• Coco Chanel naman pala!

Walang nang bago pa ditey, nagreact si eldest daughter, "i so hate ur signature!" Lahat nalang nakikita mo Audie! Hehe!

Ewan ko sa ibang bakla, hindi ata sumali sa balitaktakan. Siguro nag call-in kasi may mga booking. Tandaan girls, si Ate Aida ay nasa Makati na daw. Mother Ryan, totoo ba toh? Scary!

But no, nagsidatingan na ang mag bakla, gow!

Cris Andalis: Im just 50% gay? Haha (Ay dapat lang magtaka ka girl!)

Christian Ravanzo: Huli man daw at magaling, bakla pa rin… 60% GAY! (That's my girl!)

Louie Roy Montero: The Channel 4 Gay-O-Meter has calculated that Louie is 56 percent gay! Find out just how gay you are with the Channel 4 Gay-O-Meter http://www.channel4.com/gayometer (Ambisyosa talaga itong si Ate Louie! Dapat may glamour and presentation. Bottomesa!)

Ramon Emmanuel Garcia: Please stop sending me your replies. J hehe thanks (Tseh! Straight ba xa?) Pasight nga...

• ayan, full smile!

Ryan Aquino: 70% AKO... LOL! (Baket ka natawa Mother?)

Louie Roy Montero: I'm 56% gay! Magreply na ung iba jan.. (Oo nga girl! Bakla ka nga. Sabi mo na kanina!)

John Louie Punongbayan: Ulit ko lang 36% ako as per request..hehhehe pero bilat ako ha..bagsak nga lang sa test.. (Oo Ate, don't worry, naniniwala kaming mga kapatid mo na bakla ka talaga, albeit your 36% score may Hombre ka naman di ba? Uy, fishing!)

I went to google.com and out of nothing at all google-ized my name. A disclaimer here, I'm not a narci! And, surprisingly found 3 sites that make a little sense. You can find me in wikimapia.org, in a blogspot called paglaum-esperanza.blogspot.com and who couldn't be possibly found here, pina-arte pa, profiles.friendster.com slash 3562017. I'm a world wide web citizen already. Yey!!!

So, what I have been doing?

In the first result, it says, San Pedro College. 15 months ago Juber Paul P. Saladaga, -1. Peeps, e-mail me at jsaladaga@gmail.com. I'd love to hear from you soon! 10 months ago clongetch, 0 ...

Hehe. Nakakahiya! "I'd love to hear from you soon!" daw o! Then, I remember, I was trying to locate my Alma Mater in this satellite fed landscape of Davao City. And that is my school right there!

And I placed a comment. "The best nursing school in Davao City, one of the best in the Philippines. This is where I took my Bachelor of Science in Psychology. -- Juber Paul P. Saladaga" Awful!

Under the first result is a related link saying, Gaisano Mall of Davao. 13 months ago Juber Paul P. Saladaga, 0. This is where I "tambay" (spend my free time) when I was in college. 11 months ago rj, 0 ... -- Yeah, right!

Second result, friendster. It says, Friendster - Juber Paul. Friendster: ; location: Philippines, PH; Makati City/ Davao City; -- You know about this already. My url is http://www.friendster.com/juberispartee. Add niyo ako! Gow!

And the last says, Esperanza Agusan Del Sur. ... Jessie bien Teritet; Jetjet Calderon; Joann Rubillos; John Paul Escrin; Jordan Bandojo; Juber Paul Saladaga; Judence Tagaca; Juliet Punzalan ... -- I so admire Jellan, who made this blogspot. See, she has the time in the world to make a blog about her municipality. So I commented, and it lacks "you" by the way.

• it means, Jellan, ang ganda ng blogspot mo... About Esperanza... the mayor should award you for this... and blah blah blah...

Nagsearch ka na ba ng name mo? Or, se-search ka pa lang? Oist!

I ran through some old pics today, and I thought, I wanna share these photos taken during my birthday. I celebrated my birthday at Global Fun in Roxas Boulevard. It was full of surprises and I had so much fun. That night, I regressed to being a kid.

There were six of us, Ben, Michael, Ate Klein, Ria, Jason and me.

The first stop was, Ranger. It looked like a pendulum but it turns 360 degrees. So, just imagine. It was the first time I ever felt nauseous on a ride. At dalawang beses ko siyang sinakyan.

Then I rode the chubibo. Same chubibo cheverlu.

Because only a few rides were actually interesting, we enjoyed ourselves winning cute stuffed toys in the games cheverness. Look at the toys.

And, these were what we won. Nakagastos ata kame ng, atleast Php600.00 para sa mga toys na 'toh. Look!

Nevertheless, it was such a very special day. I never usually celebrate my birthday. Last year, I just slept at home, because it was my rest day. My friends really made it a point that I celebrate it this year. I was all snoring when Ben called me up. They were already at the lobby of my condo waiting. Then we headed to Global Fun. I received a lot of gifts that night, most are from people who I did not at all expect to bother. Vey touching. I wanna make a list of them:

1. T-shirt
2. Old Navy flip-flops
3. Orange LV
4. Big dinner at North Park
5. Wensha Full Body Massage
6. Ipod Nano and
7. silicon protector

The night didn't end there. I can't leave the park without riding the huge ferris wheel, I felt so serene, thinking about how grateful and lucky I am to have friends like them. And, feeling thankful about all the wonderful things in my 24 years of living. I have thought of my life and how I am going to proceed from that point. After a deep breath, i noticed in a bird's eyeview the beauty of the lights in the darkness of the night.

And the next day, Michael called me up to go to their place. Michael cooked adobo for me. And, Paula came with a birthday cake. It was a long time ago already since the last time that I blew a candle on a birthday cake. I really appreciate every single thing. And I dedicate this post to Ben and Michael.