Crashing Confessions

Kulang na ba talaga ako sa pansin? O, gawa nalang ng sobrang kabagotan sa trabaho?

Linggo ng gabi, well Monday morning, Sunday night production, so what do you expect? Although, I feel extraordinarily lazy to take that one remaining call in the queue, after a 45-minute call. I may have just gotten super bored or was I just thirsty for attention, thinking that people might rate me Hot or Baby-faced over this silly carimuka.com. I was so disappointed of myself after I uploaded my own photo, and mind you added it in my favorites. Shame on me!

PAUNAWA: Hindi po ako ang nasa litrato. (I'm not the one in the picture.)

What's more funny, I did not realize the big humiliation I just made until I think rated more than 10 scary or funny or rebel or other, sorry, but I'll say pathetic, well kinda (everyone is entitled of their own opinion, right? so, forgive me. anyways, I am one of you already.) shots. Sad face, for being arrogant!

But, just in case I could bring you into it too, check this out!

http://www.carimuka.com

Did you upload yours too?

These are some of the words, which you might have found confusing in my blogs. So, let me educate you a little and enjoy!

atashi, akez, akizm (pronoun) - equivalent to tagalog word, ako or akin.
ex. Maganda ba atashi?
normi: Maganda ba ako?

balur (noun) - it means, house.
ex. Nandito lang akez sa balur kez.
normi: Nandito lang ako sa bahay ko.

bengga, vengga (adjective) - equivalent to tagalog expression, bongga.
ex. Mataas ka ba? Vengga!
former: Mataas ka ba? Bongga!

bilat, bilatsi (adjective) - it means, female.
ex. Bilat ba ang friend mo, parang beki?
normi: Babae ba ang friend mo, parang bakla?

er or ers (interjection) - used as a filler.
ex. Baket panget ka ers?
normi: Baket panget ka?

ketay (noun) - it means, cell phone.
ex. Ketay mey?
normi: Cell phone mo?

mareng (pronoun) - a chavacano term for male homosexual.
ex. Mareng! Mareng!

• only a few knows why this is the example.

mey (pronoun) - equivalent to tagalog word, mo.
ex. Balur mey?
normi: Bahay mo?

shobley, torvs, torva (noun) - it means, pill or tablet; ecsatcy.
ex. Anong available na shobley ers?
normi: Anong available na tab?

wiz, wizel, wit (adjective) - it means, no, nothing or never.
ex. Bakla ka ba? Wiz!
normi: Bakla ka ba? No!

-ness (suffix) - used as suffix to a word, to achieve a gay sound.
ex. Kalokaness
normi: Kaloka

-y or -ey (suffeix) - used as suffix, sometimes replacing the last letter or last two letters of a word, to achieve a gay sound.
ex. Aney?
normi: Ano

-ng (suffix) - same as above, sometimes preceded with a vowel when suffixed with a word.
ex. Getsing? or Getsong?
normi: Gets?

Ano ney? Getsong ers? Wizel na commentness, akizm akizm lang itey ers.

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Alam niyo bang last night, wala kameng kapera-pera ng asawa ko? As in P30.00 na lang. Syempre, mej napraning atashi. Nagising ako, alas onse ng gabi at gutom. Wala na kaming potable water, may rice na tira from agahan, at tulog na tulog si Mareng (pseudonym ng asawa atashi). Naghintay pa ako ng ilang oras sakaling magising ang asawa kez, pero wiz, wizel siya nagising.

Chi-neck ko ang wallet kez at wallet niya, at P30.00 lang talaga ang pera namen. Sabi niya, may P500.00 daw kaming makukuha that night from his friend. But wizel reply and bilatsi niyang friend.

So I said, I need to be resourceful myself. Naguguluhan ako kung water ba ang ibibili ko sa okani or ulam? Hmm... hanggang sa tinodo ko na ang pagtitipidness, hinalukay ko ang aming maliit na food keeper and I found 2 zham-pongs. Then I recalled, sa probinsya inuulam ko ang noodles, so I said gagawin kong ulam ang zham-pong. So, nagpakulo ako ng water using our Black and Decker rice cooker, at dinamihan ko na para mainon namin. Solve.

I decided to text some friends, I texted a few but only one replied. Wala din daw siyang pera. The others, didn't at all care to reply. So, I texted my mom, I said babayaran ko ng 5 folds at sa awa ng Diyos pinadalhan niya ako ng pera through LBC. And I got the money in the morning.

Yong asawa ko sosyal, bumili siya ng coke out of the P30.00 kasi daw walang tubig, dalawang tuyo at isang tinapa (smoked fish) for our breakfast. At ang kanin, yong tira from yesterday's breakfast pa din. Bengga di ba?

The best part? I didn't panic at all. Knowing the friends, at least the friends I know are my friends, I feel secured, and seeing my baby with me, I feel even more secured. A big difference from being strangled in your addict world than living in the normi world. And, indeed, a big difference LOVE can do.

Na naman! Nakakapagsulat ako kasi nalulungkot ako.
Nalulungkot ako para sa isang kaibigan. Sobrang laki kasi ng nagbago sa amin simula nang natuto kaming magdroga. Physically, socially and even the way we think and people think about us.

We have our issues but I can say now, they are all dealt with and are all history.

But just recently, a very surprising story came into my attention. I can't believe that he'll steal under any circumstances. I dont want to believe it, but what concerns me most is the rumor that will creep around.

Like what I learned, somebody accused that I stole his 2 tabs of ecstacy from his pocket. So, unbelievable! And, my friends kept it from me. All the while, I am a thief in their eyes.

I wish you more hairs this year.

Kamusta mga constituents? As if, may nagbabasa ng blog kez. Hehe! Matagal-tagal din akong nawa-i, at napakarameng nangyare sa life atashi. So many changes, and I'm glad to say that most of these changes are for good. I have known new people, reunited with some, and at least greeted some of those I had, not necessarily fight, but I think, caused me trouble. But the best part is, now I have a boyfriend. Somebody I can be very proud of, somebody I feel very secure with and somebody I so love.

Na-rehab daw atashi? Wiz. Chaka ng chika. Maanda?

No. I was in an in house for 7 straight days. Kaloka! 4 hours of sleep a day, 1 meal a day, 2 to 3 tabs a day and kets, from Friday night to Thrusday night. We rested came the next Friday, watched movie and starbucks, Gov on Saturday and another in house until Sunday evening. Ngarag! Ever ngisay and bangungot!

Tingnan mo ako now. Kalansay. Para akong hinugot sa pansyon. Chaka. Scary.